SS99

The skeletons in my closet hang there, stoic and unmoving: my coats from years past

They relax and lie idle, stale fumes of past fragrances stain the fabric and clasp the seams

I hang them proudly. The collars slack and soft

Reminding me of past lives: lived, conquered, failed, romanticized, dreaded, shameful, celebrated, repressed

I can’t liberate that easy

I try to awaken them and jump back inside their skin but they just don’t want to hang onto me anymore

So it’s time to let them go. Move on they say

It’s not so easy

They’re stuck at a bottleneck

Hugging me and holding me, familiar with my manners, scared to release and fall to the ground

They choke me while we embrace

Forgive yourself

Don’t count your bones

They weigh more than you think

Too dense and destructive for any shot of lightness

Be gone

Don’t be afraid

But what if ?

Please let me go